walking in the dark

im listening to that song everyday. every moment im in the office. i don’t know. im kinda like imagining that someone is singing that song for me. so sweet.

then maybe i don’t want to be happy anymore..

i shouldn’t care and wonder where and how you are. but i cant hide this hurt inside my broken heart. i’m fighting back emotions that i never felt before, cause i’m not supposed to love you anymore..

Don’t give me a second chance

It’ll be the same

You will be the consequence

And I will have the pain

You are something else I have

I have to survive

That is why I say

With tears in my eyes

I wish I never opened up my heart

I didn’t mean to love you baby

I wish I never let it get this far

I didn’t mean to love you baby

If I could have a single wish

I’d turn back time

I didn’t mean to make you

I didn’t mean to make you

Mine

Don’t look at me like I’m mad

I thought you would know

I was getting way too sad

It was gonna show

There was no way I could hide

I could hide the truth

So I took the risk

And fell for you

I wish I never opened up my heart

I didn’t mean to love you baby

I wish I never let it get this far

I didn’t mean to love you baby

If I could have a single wish

I’d turn back time

I didn’t mean to make you

I didn’t mean to make you

Mine

I didn’t mean to make you hold me

I didn’t mean to get so lonely

I didn’t mean to say all this to you

I didn’t mean to make you need me

I didn’t mean to love you like I do

Look at what we’ve put us through

I wish I never opened up my heart

I didn’t mean to love you baby

I wish I never let it get this far

I didn’t mean to love you baby

If I could have a single wish

I’d turn back time

I didn’t mean to make you

I didn’t mean to make you

I didn’t mean to make you

Mine..

- i dedicate this to the one who broke my heart big time..

i was on the front beach last night. stayed there until the chill reached my bones. until i shiver in the coldness of the night.

i cried again. damn!

finally had one.
it took so long. but it’s just perfect!

God loves me still. kahit pasaway ako minsan (lagi pala).

sana this time, things will be more than okay.
sana di ko maulit ung mga mistakes ko dati.
sana sya na!

im singing over you now..

funny but true. was it just last week i declared my"undying" love for him? see what 6 days can do..

i would always tend to lose myself when i travel.

recently, a three hour trip to caticlan was exciting. a new place. new people. new everything! i never dared to doze to sleep, even if im very sleepy.

i would always remember ma’am lisa. "never sleep when travelling. you’ll discover a lot of stories on the road.." well, she’s always right.

when i was still working as a researcher for population institute, we would always travel every week. im staying in miagao, and every week i go home to my dorm, there would always be something new on the road. a new built house maybe, progress on the bridge at tigbauan, or just simply new people on the usual tambayan.

i can’t help but think, im part of the picture, too. there are other travellers who would also see these things through the window..

what could be the significance of the number 13 in my life? well it’s nash’s jersey number. other than that, yesterday was august 13..

i can’t help but wake up with a smile on my face this morning.
true. the things that you don’t expect, are the things that happens.

unplanned. but im happy. God really knows the perfect timing.