it’s amazing how sometimes we could still find the things we’ve lost..
i wonder if he would ever noticed that he LOST me, and would also take time to find me..
but i knew it, he won’t..
i still believe in love..
i still believe in fairy tales..
i still believe in happily ever after..
funny how i would listen to the song mad by ne-yo, everynight before i sleep. i even set my player in a loop mode, with that only song playing over and over again.^^
this line really sinks in into me: “this love ain’t going perfect, we can fuss, we can fight, long as everything’s alright before we go to sleep..” really sweet right? coming from a guy.
i know it would be valentines day again tomorrow and i could not get mad because i don’t have someone to date. hahaha. as if it’s a big problem!^^ well, i’m used to it. i have been alone, since i learned how to fall in love (something so deep, huh?)..^^
this is my destiny. but i really couldn’t get MAD.^^
i forgot how to live my life this past few days. my days and nights revolved on only one person - mark. wondering how he is and constantly thinking of him..
for a while i know it’s good. it helped me accept that the person i have been loving for almost 2 years is gone. he was a diversion..
but, i can’t forever believe in myself that he feels the same for me. it hurts. i’m here again falling in love when i shoudn’t..
this is the first workplace i have where i’m not surrounded by people from peyups. it’ been real different. people here talk about other people..
who’s perfect? why do people would always see flaws from other people easily and would talk about it feeling that they are perfect themselves..
i could not help but supress a laugh whenever it’s lunch time. i could not even comment for just a word. i consider it wrong. but i could not impose it to other people. we do have other beliefs right?
that’s why i miss having my friends around - socio/econ pips, where we could talk about just anything under the sun. not other people. but just our selves..
i’m sure someone out there would agree with me. let me just say this warning: BEWARE OF OFFICE GOSSIPS, you may be the next topic!^^
i believe this is my first entry for the year 2009. i am just sad and i wanted the world to know..
roger lost again to nadal. i don’t want to blame roger or nadal. i wanted to blame roger’s fate..
and my fate, too!
i’m into something i should not be in, again. i should not be in love..**
two reasons why i’m sad. real sad!
